Sunday, November 7, 2010

Let There Be Loved...!!

For the past six months, I lived a meaningless life….the same routine every day after the accident that ripe out my soul off my body. The image is still playing clearly like a film inside my head. We were both in a car, heading home after enjoying ourselves at the theme park. It was a week after the end of school. He was driving calmly. I glanced at the dashboard, it was 11 p.m. suddenly, a bright light flashed from nowhere straight into our eyes. We could see nothing except the light. He lost control on the car. He swerved to the right….and it happened. I can still hear the screaming tires and the busting glass. I turned to him….he hardly breathing. I reached for him…. I held him tight… I kissed him…our last kiss…. I lost my lost my love, my life that night….
But, something happened this morning. I was walking with a bunch of friends, heading to the lecture hall. This was the moment that I saw him. He’s no other extraordinary boys. He’s just a boy, a common boy. But, seeing him made me turn twice. Everything about him makes me want to take not only second, but third, fourth, no….as many glance as I can. At the moment, I felt like my heart was strike, maybe by lightning. Oh man….how can I handle this?? I’m actually late for class, so I just walked passed him, take a last glance and walk away. Well, maybe it’s nothing.
It’s 2 am in the morning. I tried to sleep, but I can’t. what’s wrong with me? I can’t think of anything, except one thing….the boy! From the moment I saw him, I can’t help myself from thinking about him. What’s with that boy? I couldn’t think of anything special about him….but I can’t stop thinking about him. The way he walks, the way he dressed, the way he smiles, the way he do his hair….everything!! Aaaahhhhhh…. I’ve felt this kind of feeling once, but it faded not long ago….and now I’m having this kind of feeling one more time…. I felt in love….
 I’ve always looking forward to see him. Everywhere I go, my eyes kept searching for him. Sometimes I saw him….sometimes I don’t. Every time I saw him, I’m so excited…. I’m on top of the world….and if I don’t, I just kept searching and hoping to find him. My heart was shining again…. I got a new spirit…. I ran my daily life with a new hope. Day by day, I started to know him. Little by little, I learned something about him. I knew his name, from which class he is, I even got his photos….but something for sure, he doesn’t even jnow that I’m exist….that I’m here, watching him….he doesn’t even know….because I’m just watching him from a distance….that’s the truth….

“It’s hard to wait around for something you know might never happen, but it’s even harder to give up especially when it’s everything you ever wanted”….this quote suits me well. I want him that much….but I know it’s impossible. Sometimes I feel like giving up, and move on….but I can’t…. I just can’t. The more I pushed, some more I’m pulling back towards him. Sometimes I feel like walking straight towards him and confess. But I don’t have the strength….the spirit to do so. What am I gonna do?? God….help me….

It’s a big night tonight. There will be show and anyone can join it. What made it big is he’ll be playing tonight. I just can’t wait to watch him.

to be continued....

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